{"id":2118,"date":"2012-10-30T08:43:40","date_gmt":"2012-10-30T13:43:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/?p=2118"},"modified":"2015-07-28T14:11:57","modified_gmt":"2015-07-28T12:11:57","slug":"nostalji","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/nostalji\/","title":{"rendered":"Nostalji"},"content":{"rendered":"

But I\u2019ve been turning over in my mind the question of nostalgia, and whether I suffer from it. I certainly don\u2019t get soggy at the memory of some childhood knickknack; nor do I want to deceive myself sentimentally about something that wasn\u2019t even true at the time\u2014love of the old school, and so on. But if nostalgia means the powerful recollection of strong emotions\u2014and a regret that such feelings are no longer present in our lives\u2014then I plead guilty. – Julian Barnes, The Sense of An Ending<\/em><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Ge\u00e7en hafta radyo dinlerken \u00e7ok garip bir \u015fey hissettim. Tan\u0131d\u0131k gelen bir \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 kimin s\u00f6yledi\u011fini hat\u0131rlamay\u0131nca radyoya e\u011fildim ve grubun ismini okudum. B\u00f6ylece soruma birka\u00e7 saniye i\u00e7inde cevap buldum ve soruma birka\u00e7 saniye i\u00e7inde cevap bulabiliyor olman\u0131n hissettirdiklerinin uzun s\u00fcre etkisinde kald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

M\u00fczik dinlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk g\u00fcnlerde istedi\u011fim m\u00fczi\u011fe eri\u015febilmek pahal\u0131 ve \u00e7o\u011funlukla zor bir u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131. O g\u00fcnlerde benzer zevklere sahip arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n olmas\u0131 bug\u00fcnlere g\u00f6re daha de\u011ferli bir \u015feydi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc dinlemek istedi\u011fim her alb\u00fcm\u00fcn kasedini alabilmek g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc a\u015f\u0131yordu. Bir\u00e7ok arkada\u015f\u0131m gibi her ay iki kaset alabilecek kadar para ay\u0131rabiliyordum. O y\u00fczden kendi sat\u0131n ald\u0131klar\u0131m kadar arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n ald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6nemsiyordum. Herkesin birbirinin kasetlerini kopyalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yo\u011fun g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7iriyorduk.<\/p>\n

Bayramda \u00e7oktand\u0131r y\u00fczlerine bakmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kasetlerimi inceledim ve y\u0131llard\u0131r o g\u00fcnlerdeki heyecan\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131ndan bile ge\u00e7emedi\u011fimi \u00fcz\u00fclerek fark ettim. Bir \u015fark\u0131ya ula\u015fabilmek, o \u015fark\u0131da ne dendi\u011fini anlayabilmek en \u00e7ok o zamanlar de\u011ferliydi galiba.<\/p>\n

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Nirvana’n\u0131n In Utero<\/em>‘suna 39 milyon verdi\u011fimi (i\u00e7ime \u00e7ok oturdu\u011fundan olsa gerek) net bir \u015fekilde hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki alb\u00fcmlerin a\u011fa babas\u0131n\u0131<\/a> t\u00fcm aramalar\u0131ma ra\u011fmen bulamad\u0131m. Ve b\u00f6ylece arkada\u015flarla ortak kaset kullan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n bana \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi en \u00f6nemli hayat dersini bir kez daha an\u0131msad\u0131m: Kasetlerine sahip \u00e7\u0131k!<\/p>\n

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Kuzenimden \u00e7ekti\u011fim Ammonia Avenue<\/em><\/a>‘yu ilk dinledi\u011fim andan itibaren \u00e7ok sevmi\u015ftim. O y\u00fczden \u00d6zlem Kaset ve Plak\u00e7\u0131l\u0131k’ta Eve<\/em>‘i buldu\u011fum zaman \u00e7ok sevindi\u011fimi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorum. \u00d6te yandan belli ki The Division Bell<\/em>‘i ben almam\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Kasetin sonunda bo\u015f kalan yerlere Animals<\/em>‘\u0131 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar\u0131yla bir daha \u00e7ekmi\u015fim. Kasetleri kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131rken en \u00e7ok The Division Bell<\/em>‘de hangi \u015fark\u0131da kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ve m\u00fczik\u00e7alar\u0131 neden kapatm\u0131\u015f olabilece\u011fimi merak ettim. Cevab\u0131n\u0131 bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n

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Ve elbette ki bo\u015f kaset bulma derdimiz… Walkman Dergisi’ni i\u00e7eri\u011finden ho\u015flanmamama ra\u011fmen verdi\u011fi kasetlerin \u00fczerine bir \u015feyler \u00e7ekebilmek i\u00e7in sat\u0131n al\u0131yordum. Radyolar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda haz\u0131rolda bekliyor ve asker disiplini i\u00e7inde \u015fark\u0131 kaydediyordum bu kasetlere. Acaba a\u015fa\u011f\u0131daki kasette neler var? Bu soru hem beni gizemiyle heyecanland\u0131r\u0131yor hem de cevab\u0131yla korkutuyor.<\/p>\n

Bir keresinde Isaac Asimov okumay\u0131 seven arkada\u015f\u0131m Burcu b\u00fcy\u00fck bir co\u015fkuyla beni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131p anneannesinin evinde buldu\u011fu bir defineyi g\u00f6stermi\u015fti: Anneannesi senelerdir gazetelerin kupon kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 verdi\u011fi kasetleri alm\u0131\u015f ve biriktirmi\u015f. B\u00f6ylece torbalar dolusu kasedimiz olmu\u015ftu. Hemen o an se\u00e7icili\u011fimizden vazge\u00e7ip g\u00fcnler boyunca radyoda ne duyduysak kaydetmi\u015ftik. O kasetler \u015fimdilerde nerelerdedir hi\u00e7 bilmiyorum.<\/p>\n

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A\u00e7\u0131k\u00e7as\u0131 teknolojinin \u015fu anda bize sunduklar\u0131ndan \u00e7ok memnunum ve vazge\u00e7mek istemem ama geriye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda da b\u00fct\u00fcn bu \u00e7abam\u0131z\u0131n ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Yaz tatilinde sahilde walkman’iyle y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f yapan altm\u0131\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir kad\u0131nla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131m. E\u011fer nostalji, dedikleri gibi \u015fiddetle hissettiklerimizin an\u0131s\u0131 ve bu duygular\u0131 \u015fu anda hissedemiyor olu\u015fumuzun pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ise galiba o kad\u0131n benim nostaljimdi.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

But I\u2019ve been turning over in my mind the question of nostalgia, and whether I suffer from it. I certainly don\u2019t get soggy at the memory of some childhood knickknack; nor do I want to deceive myself sentimentally about something that wasn\u2019t even true at the time\u2014love of the old school, and so on. But if nostalgia means the powerful recollection of strong emotions\u2014and a regret that such feelings are no longer present in our lives\u2014then I plead guilty. – Julian Barnes, The Sense of An Ending Ge\u00e7en hafta radyo dinlerken \u00e7ok garip bir \u015fey hissettim. Tan\u0131d\u0131k gelen bir \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 kimin s\u00f6yledi\u011fini hat\u0131rlamay\u0131nca radyoya e\u011fildim ve grubun ismini okudum. B\u00f6ylece soruma birka\u00e7 saniye i\u00e7inde cevap buldum ve soruma birka\u00e7 saniye i\u00e7inde cevap bulabiliyor olman\u0131n hissettirdiklerinin uzun s\u00fcre etkisinde kald\u0131m. M\u00fczik dinlemeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk g\u00fcnlerde istedi\u011fim m\u00fczi\u011fe eri\u015febilmek pahal\u0131 ve \u00e7o\u011funlukla zor bir u\u011fra\u015ft\u0131. O g\u00fcnlerde benzer zevklere sahip arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n olmas\u0131 bug\u00fcnlere g\u00f6re daha de\u011ferli bir \u015feydi. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc dinlemek istedi\u011fim her alb\u00fcm\u00fcn kasedini alabilmek g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc a\u015f\u0131yordu. Bir\u00e7ok arkada\u015f\u0131m gibi her ay iki kaset alabilecek kadar para ay\u0131rabiliyordum. O y\u00fczden kendi sat\u0131n ald\u0131klar\u0131m kadar arkada\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n ald\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6nemsiyordum. Herkesin birbirinin kasetlerini kopyalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yo\u011fun g\u00fcnler ge\u00e7iriyorduk. Bayramda \u00e7oktand\u0131r y\u00fczlerine bakmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kasetlerimi inceledim ve […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":2119,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[209],"tags":[364,365,363,366,367],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2118"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2118"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2118\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3592,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2118\/revisions\/3592"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/2119"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2118"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2118"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/guzelonlu.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2118"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}